I’ve been in a very enlightening mood lately. It’s so satisfying knowing that you can be 100% with yourself and that is OK. Not many people feel that and worse not many know that. I wrote myself a prayer today. I’m calling it the selfish prayer. I am basically manifesting good vibes into my life and I wanted to share it in case my followers/ readers are in a place where they need some encouragement and positivity.
I was struggling with how to fit my chill and relaxed personality in with people who were loud, friendly and outgoing. I have spent years trying to understand how certain people made it so easy to be open to people they didn’t know. I’m at the point now where I know that it is OK to be selective, different and a person that takes her time.
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PSA: Side hustles are an essential, college student-money maker. Sometimes working part-time on campus just isn’ t enough! This photo shoot showed me that I could be a model, but also a photographer or even a photo editor/ graphic designer. Look kids. Support your friends. Stop trying to finesse “the free” and invest in those who support you. These pictures turned out great.
No this is not a start of my modeling career. HOWEVER. There is a bigger picture from all of this. Because this was a photo shoot, and technically I was modeling, right? But really I was just helping a friend out. Allowing him to practice his photography and editing on me; walking around for about 2 hours in the heat, makeup practically dripping off of my face; heals missing in nearly half of these photos. But they turned out cute. I’m so proud.
One thing that I can truly appreciate in this life is that you can be whoever you want to be.
I know a lot of people, including myself, who may over think the way one is supposed to act, dress, speak, be. You may see someone do something you have never seen them do and all of a sudden they are changing, faking, fronting and whatever else.
I like to call some of those changes “taking strides.” Kudos to those who are jumping out of their comfort zone. I admire those who once were and now are.
Finding your style may be difficult. You look at all of the models on Instagram and see the same girls with the same bomber jackets paired with a crop top and leggings and wonder if there is anything else left for this generation. You go to Tumblr and you would have never thought that mom jeans would come back until you scroll past a photo that makes you want to make an instant purchase. But then you second guess yourself. Because you look in the mirror and think you could never pull off something so edgy.
I say who tf cares. The one thing that I admire beyond those who are willing to make changes are those who have the natural confidence to rock whatever they have whether it’s in trend or not. Those are the people I look up to because tbh, those mom jeans really aren’t that cute. *shrugs. It’s the person that is wearing them that makes the difference. People are drawn to those with confidence. Thats why the funniest people seem to have the most friends because they exude something in themselves what many people are afraid to show. Who they are. If you haven’t noticed, so many comedians are willing to crack jokes on themselves and many recognize their own flaws that if someone else calls them out about it, it doesn’t hurt as much.
I say all this to say that I went to Austin this week for my sister’s graduation and I tried something different. Something a little more freeing. I have always said that I wouldn’t wear hats because I thought my head was too big. I did that. I avoided this skirt because I wasn’t as small as I was when I bought it and I didn’t want to worry about the attached skirt underneath rising. I made it work. I have been breaking out like crazy boys and I didn’t really want to take a ton of pictures but..makeup. It may not be what other people are used to but if you look good! Why not??
No more making excuses for yourself people.
Do wtf you want. Take those strides I was talking about. & then rock them.
Im still trying to swallow that. Whole. I keep telling myself and those around me that I can’t wait but the closer the time gets the more I really start dissecting what I want for my life. I’m not too sure where I want to live and I’ve applied to countless jobs… maybe 100 and I still find myself nowhere and unprepared. I have so much support which is great but I know eventually Im going to have to figure things out on my own.
This summer I plan on taking summer classes, working and working out and maybe a bit of travel. Im looking for internships now and am very hopeful. GOD GOT ME. But in the meantime like who do i think I am? So far all I’ve done is go out to eat for every single occasion and have the audacity to pay for myself. 3 words. I. Am. Broke.
I would love to be one of those girls or bloggers that write about how to save money and live a minimalistic life and be stress free. But I’m just too honest with myself. I’m the one reading and looking up videos about how to be and do those things.
I know I have neglected my blog for the past 2 months and for those of you who have been actively reading…I am so sorry…but your girl got a LIFE. jk. No seriously though. Ive been very busy and very unmotivated.
I also wonder if I really got out of college what I wanted from it. Like if I were to graduate would I be able to honestly say that I was 100% fulfilled. To answer the question now, not yet. I feel like there are so many different things I wish I could have done but I do believe that everything happens for a reason.
Im not giving up kids. Don’t worry. Im just in a transitioning stage. I need to organize my life. that’s all. If you’ve read to this point and feel like this was a super negative post and i’m just gonna fail at life…YOU NEED TO HAVE MORE FAITH IN ME. ❤
I like my lashes to be full on some days, natural on others and long and defined when I go out with my girls. I have always admired the look of long and full lashes and would settle for the strips but mostly, it’s just me and my mascara.
I don’t know much about lashes or even how to apply the packaged ones but I know someone who does & she is amazing at it.
So much has happened in 2017 so far. Enough for me to feel like it can’t get anymore busy, or worse or even impactful. But life is full of surprises. Sometimes you need a break from those surprises. Instead of just worrying about what would happen next, I chose to just leave my worries at the door and step into the carnival a carefree kid.
Unfortunately there was no photo booth. So we made one.
First and foremost, I appreciate Big Sean’s work because it is unique and personal.You can tell based off his colorful sound that he wants his listeners to vibe with him, get to know him and turn up with him all at the same time. Some how some way he is able to master this without his albums being “choppy”. Recently though, you can tell that Big Sean has been doing some growing up and has become more self-aware. You can especially see that in his new album, I Decided. Sean often refers to the past and his thought processes on his life thus far. Not only is he a large contributor to his own work, he has written several songs for big named artists and has won numerous awards. I believe that Big Sean is underrated, to be quite honest, and his art should be acknowledged for more than what it has been.